H i i know this is an old post but ithink i may have a new very serious problem.
it started a few months back at work i thought i'd done a good job on the sunday night shift so i went hone quite content with myself.
but that wednesday my supervisor gave me a lot of hassle over my it and it wasn't good enough and with out thinking a took my work knife and slashed my left arm 5 times 3 quite large cuts and 2 little cuts when i got home i claimed i had an accident.
but it scared me and left me with some scars.
then i stopped but lately if been making lots of little mistakes after 6 years of doing the same thing i shouldn't be making these mistakes. so i decided to punish my self my errors by cutting my arms.
i know thats a problem in its self but i think i might actually be addiceted to self arm i'm on my own again for a fortnight my parents come back this sunday.
i washing the pots this evening and saw the carving picked it up and started cutting at my left arm.
then i put it away kneeled on the floor and started hitting myself because i'd cut myself. then i went back to washing and tried using a steak knife in the same place as the carving kinve because hadn't peirced the skin.
i also cut my self at on purpose because i'd checked a delivery wrong.
looks like 6 little cuts i think my blades getting blunt.
i'm not sure what to do?
thats why i came here.
because i'm sure if i told my parents they'd desert me for being stupid.
i'm sorry.
jinzo, I don't know you personally off the forums, or your parents, but I find it highly unlikely they would desert you for any reason at all. Much less one this serious. If you're cutting yourself as you described, then there's reasons why. You have to get help from them, and they have to get help for you to find out why. You won't be able to figure this out on your own without some kind of guidance from the people closest to you.
If for some bizarre, obscure, otherworldly reason they can't help you at this time, then go see your family doctor, school councilor, minister/pastor, whatever lifelines you have and seek out the pros help on this. Don't depend on just the internet to work this out. Get help from people who know what they're doing and know how help you figure this out. Don't wait. And no, you're not stupid and you're not alone. There's reason for what you're doing. And there's ways to deal with it.
The most I can do is encourage you to talk to your parents, and maybe
this link will help a little too, since it's the most I can do from my position. But yeah, you know you've got friends here.
